our bathroom was invaded by ants yesterday; which unfortunately did end up putting a damper on the joy that was the packers. i spent most of my time not at the game fighting the little fuckers and cleaning them out of the shower. ick. but alas i think i have reclaimed the bathroom.
this weekend was stressful, and i don't think i responded too well. beyond cranky last night and today. sandie said that her and i belonged at home in front of a fire. i agreed. here's hoping that tonight is better.
something very trival last night reminded me beyond belief of bad friends. a lot of conversations lately have been. the way that we look at people, and trying to define the world normal. i've decided to continue full force with a recent decision to be honest with myself about friends. i've also decided to try to be less sensative to judgements. i still think that they are unfair, and i think i'll always be overly touchy about them. but someone recently, very harshly - but truthfully, mentioned that it shouldn't matter. i wish people who claim to love me were less judgmental, hell i wish we all were, but that's not the case. i wish we could all see ourselves for what we are, but we don't. and i have to work on being less caught up in the craziness of the facade, and instead just live.
i leave a week from tomorrow for a much needed break. i'll miss things here, but i couldn't be more excited to spend seventeen days surrounded by people i know and love and who just get it.