Killed myself when i was young - A. A. Bondy

Its amazing sometimes how we end up where we are.  the things that fill our daily routines, the people we see, we love, we kiss, the places we go,t he spaces we exist in.  i doubt any of us are exactly where who and how we thought we would be 1 year ago, 5 years ago, when we were 5 years old.   

I know spend my time researching packers stats and getting paid for it.  And have writers I admire telling me that I have a book in me.  And I spend my days in and office wearing cute shoes, and nearly perfect eye shadow helping to make people's lives better.  And I come home and "keep house", do laundry and the dishes and plan out meals, and lay next to the same person night in and night out.  And my bathroom is filled with Aveda products.  And i have an iphone and drive an audi.  and I drink the high life more than ML.  I have eye cream to fight the wrinkles.  And my pants are now sizes larger than I used to be able to count up to.  where we gonna go from here.

In the middle of October, I took a new job. My job at the law firm was ending, and even though there was the potential of another marketing position opening up I took a job outside the company.  I now work at InRETURN, and I recommend everyone checking it out as I'm very proud of what we do.  We employ brain injury survivors, give them real life and work experiences, and really try to improve their lives.  I do administrative stuff, billing, etc, but I'm also in charge of volunteer management and growing the life skills section of the company.  I'm eager and anxious to start spreading the word of the work we do and the great people that I am getting to know.  I am eager to brain storm, to fight, to be challenged.  Its very exciting.  And my writing has really taken off as well.  And while SB and I have our flaws, I can fully say that we are are genuinely us at all moments.  and for that I will always be grateful.  and tonight, I'm on the radio again.  Will be for the next three weeks, and even though we finally beat Favre I've found something to rant about this week.  

For the first time in a long time I am competely ready and excited for what will happen next.  it will be great.